i have no idea why i'm sore all over, but i am.
but here goes.

i feel 30%, wait, maybe 50% productive today.
at least i got my big (but cute) butt off the chair and cleaned up my closet.
after all, it's good to get rid of the clothes i don't want anymore,
it makes space for the new ones i'm buying. haha

 
before                                              after

i don't know how many nights that i have lost catching zzz's.
it's not that i had something to do, i was tired physically but mentally,
my brain just won't shut up.
i start worrying about the teeniest things that are not even important
and then there goes like three hours just lying on my bed.

you know those jusco selection meals that are pretty cheap
sold at the supermarket's freezer area?
i just bought one the other day for the fun of it.
then today i made that for dinner, which wasn't half-bad!
fries were good, the sauce was great, the chicken, just ok.

anyway, choong fu just dropped me off home.
i think the both of us are feeling a dread of burden from the elders.
it's ok that they want us to be more involved with them.
but they can't expect us to make everyone else go along with it right?
as if we have such 'magical' powers to make people do our bidding.

sigh.

so the plan for today was:
01. go to the bank
02. pick up my new pair of glasses
03. have lunch
04. buy a box of chocolates
05. go to the lawyers office
06. hang out at aunt's place
07. meet up with tati

instead:
01-05 was good
06. spend many freaking hours shopping at one utama

i have this voice at the back of my head nagging me.
i feel like i've been spending too much of my mother's money lately.
but it's not as if i'm stupid, or heartless, or iconsiderate,
i'll definitely pay her back for most of the things and buy her a meal!
(a very very expensive meal lah!)

however, i'm estatically happy with my new stuff
and apparently more stuff to buy (my excuse: cny) lah.

uncle edward says: 'so typically your age punya behaviour.'


i have a problem with people who are opinionative!
you're right, they do have a freedom to voice what they think.
but c'mon, they don't have to belittle people when other people don't agree right?
i'm just voicing my own past experience lah.
and you won't believe how much they contradict the shit out of themselves.

for a day, the-person-who-is-opinionative would hate, lets say, snow patrol.
saying that the whole indie is so overrated.
then at the end of the week, wouldn't stop babbling about how much they love the freaking song and that anyone who didn't is a total moron.sigh. or also when they knew the band wayyyy before they hit the radios.
doh, almost the 2/3 of the world knew mcr before they went on MTV.

i've been having bad sleeping cycles, sleeping at 5am, waking up at 1pm.
this is how life is when mom's busy making her cny chicken floss orders.
but i've been feeling kind of guilty, because she's been spending alot of me.
got a new pair of glasses, a new pair of working pants and alot of clothes!

anyway, gmail and xanga has been a real pain in the ass.
i've no idea why everytime it shows
PAGE CANNOT BE DISPLAYED
cibai, cannot be displayed.
since i was expecting mail, i wanted to tear my hair out (but i didn't)
in the end i spent hours reading ohnotheydidnt. sigh.

so since i'm so sick of xanga (and LJ)
i've been working on a blogspot site.
azim says 'where's your loyalty?!'
but i say 'can't they get the freaking thing to work properly?!'
c'mon xanga, if it isn't your picture uploads then it's having a problem signing in.

oh, random.
dad went to thailand the other weekend to play golf with his buddies.
now my house has alot of fanta and minute maid bottles. damn.
btw, i am getting very addicted to the minute maids. (not the mcdonald bullsh)

in an ending note, my blogspot will be up in february.